I’ve often wondered where my line would be if I started gaining weight. This weekend I found it.
I don’t feel like I look like I’ve gained weight but I know I have because my jeans have gotten uncomfortable. That was easy to blame on them just coming out of the dryer. I thought about buying new jeans so I could be comfortable, but I don’t particularly like jeans and really have no use for them for the next seven months.
Perhaps when you’ve given up on wearing your jeans in favor of flowy dresses, that could be the line, but it wasn’t.
While sometimes I curse the scale because it can have such an influence over a day, I’m glad I have it because the scale doesn’t lie and you can’t make excuses for it. Without it, maybe I would have bought those bigger jeans and then another pair and then another. Without the scale, I might have been one of those people whose wake up call is a picture of someone she doesn’t recognize until she double takes and realizes it’s her.
I crossed the line when I climbed on the dreaded scale on Sunday and saw 126. I kinda always thought my line would be 130, but 126 was all I needed. Yes, it still falls in the “normal” range for my height (5’3″) and yes, I know a lot of people would love to see 126 on their scale, but this is about me.
The me who was at 122 after the holidays and pledged to lose five pounds in January. FAIL. The me who thought I would at least lose those five pounds by the end of the WWW Challenge. FAIL. The me who works out six days a week. NOT FAIR.
I promptly threw the scale under my bed. Don’t get me wrong, it will be back with weekly appearances, but I’m not going to weigh myself daily anymore.
I didn’t want to do a weight loss goal for the Spring Fever Challenge, but now I think I might because I don’t feel as clueless. At the beginning of the year, I honestly thought it was holiday weight that would melt off on its own. Now I can admit it’s going to take more work.
I see the path that got me here and (I hope) I see the path that will get me back. I’m not ready to write about it yet, at this point I’m just ready to say I found my line and I’m retreating.