Reverb 10, Day 19 Healing. What healed you this year? Was it sudden, or a drip-by-drip evolution? How would you like to be healed in 2011?
I’ve had a charmed life and no one likes the poor, little rich girl being all “woe is me” about her so-called hardships, but I learned my favorite lesson about emotions back in college when my roommate, another poor, little rich girl, was going through her parents’ divorce. Her counselor told her that it was okay to feel her feelings.
Why do women have to be reminded that it’s okay for them to have feelings, feel them, express them, work through them? Whatever the reason, when I feel like my feelings aren’t valid or that my life has been too sheltered for me to be distressed, I just remind myself it’s okay to feel my feelings.
I worked through some heartache and relationship and work baggage this year and I was healed in the little moments. I found comfort in the rhythm of my runs. I found comfort in slow rituals and taking time for myself. I created and validated a ritual of staying in bed with my feelings if I wanted to, knowing it would heal whatever I was going through and the next day I’d get up, mental health a little more intact.
I was healed by confronting some of the shadowy lurkers of my past and by just closing the door and walking away from others. I got over some things in my past by jumping into new things, which is a good band-aid, but perhaps in 2011, I will work on actually healing them.
I feel like I’m in a good place right now, but everyone has their days and everyone has things from the past that pop up and pinch them right in that spot that makes it hurt all over again. When those days come up, I know that it’s okay to feel my feelings and work through them however is right for me.